When Things You Bought Take Over The Things You Like

We all like to shop; at least to the best of my knowledge we all do. It may be a unanomous decision but we all have that one thing in particular that we could say we couldn’t go without. Then it faces us; and it’s as though that money we once had no longer exist.

With 1,012 comments from people mostly re-occuring guest. I would love to sit here all day and work on them one by one. I don’t find my blog or any of the blogs that have come before this a waste of time. I do find it heart wrenching to find that I miss so much of my past though look so forward to the past; while at the same time finding it uncomfortable at the present moment.

I can no longer blame others or my disorders here with Bipolar or Borderline Personality Disorder which moves so great along with Depression. I have however learned that the more you stay steditary in the moment with depression the worse it becomes. 

I wasn’t fearful when I started this journey from my parents house. To make a complete loop; which has happened several times around. For the world does not revolve around me. God puts all things into motion; for I do not think it’s just gravitational forces that blind us.

“RIP “White Ford F150″ To Driving to one of these isn’t strange it is deranged to think a person of that stature would get away with all the dangers in the world.” – Johnna C. Floyd

Things I Have Bought 

Money is easier spent than it ever is made. I wish for a way to make money; though in every way I feel that there is a guard rail of things in my way. I find that non of the schemes on Pinterest work. There is limited sources here in the group home especially without a way to get to a transportational system except that I have two feet that work. For that I have asked my “Real Dad” for shoes!

I have depended on my family most of my life and I can’t imagine living without them. Though for the last two to three years they have been seldom in my life. I am one to two years from my degree. While some have even told me that I would serve a consequence if I were to be found at work again. 

My Vuse Solo is in need of cartridges as well as my JUUL Vape as well as my actual Vaporizer = a lot of money in nicotine… Going back now I think that was not so smart of a purchase and not stuff I just want to collect dust all over in nd my clear drawer. 

My Planner; My Bible and an aray of Faith Happy Planner stickers. I don’t think I can just give and so in which I have; in a way in which I have become acustomed to. A person can only give so much of themselves. I grow each day though does it grow my heart harder to find the resentment and hardships of the knives driven in the back of my cloack.

Something I have done since I was 12; this is “No Game” anymore… You can’t just jackpot on the internet call another persons work yours and sit around the round table and profit – in the end we all find out who? what? when? where? and especially we can already begin to feel why?

So maybe I have gone further in my education than people have. I do not tend to brag; my parents had the best intentions for me and even I could not fullfill what their dreams for me were. Though; I will not be dragged down by especially that of week – mostly female hormonal gland problems. That which do not pertain to me and I am not to be blamed for laying in “MY” 2×4 twin bed and paying me Bills. 

READ  Day Before My 31st

I have paid bills for the last year and a half. Though this is nothing of what I would have thought it would be. In a room full of three room-mates how dare you use another persons name to attain that unthinkable. While also following behind at a measurement of 2 ft though more like inches away. 

However; this is a new year with new debts and new determinations. To simply rely on a man especially with an agenda that doesn’t match yours could be the death of you. I am called and placed in a place of whatever the heck this town of Fort Worth has called me. I am not in charge of my life; all the mean while God is in charge of mine. God will keep me safe in and out and through and in between. When I can see no other way; God sees all the way and keeps me safe and knows the way out. All I have to do is follow him and trust and believe. While not letting this all have effect especially as a sick patient; in which most of what these people are talking about is sick in the first place. 

Bringing my finances and my mind into correction; in order to attain the last classes towards my degree and a seat at a company to where I can pay off my unfortunate demise. You will learn as you get older; you really don’t have friends nor are they collegues just people coming up from no where. To what pertains to me and my quirks as people wanting and wanting. Mostly anything we have; thanks for the comments mostly from these people. I would like to recieve as much help as possible; I wouldn’t come out and say I am a victim. Though I would say when desperate times have come they have come with desperate measures. 

I don’t like to admit it but we all compare! When I compare myself to my roommates; I find that I came from a lot more. A better social class in my deepest regards. I was told I was mouthy growing up; though now I laugh the oldest woman in this room can not stop talking. She also violently talks about money in which we can not tell that which she exactly is talking about. The one about 4 years older than me; just needs to stop using my name. The one who I really don’t like following me; is sleeping and requires no immediate attention. While we all seem to struggle to keep our Nannie in the best of mindset possible.

  •  
    5
    Shares
  • 5
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  
  •  

21 comments / Add your comment below

  1. I want to get across my love for your kindness in support of those individuals that really need help on this area. Your personal commitment to passing the solution all over had become incredibly interesting and has always enabled folks like me to arrive at their endeavors. Your new warm and friendly recommendations implies this much a person like me and much more to my peers. With thanks; from each one of us.

  2. Thanks so much for giving everyone an extremely marvellous opportunity to read in detail from this web site. It is usually very ideal and jam-packed with a great time for me personally and my office co-workers to visit your site particularly 3 times in one week to see the newest tips you will have. And definitely, I’m so at all times astounded with the tremendous guidelines you serve. Selected two ideas on this page are absolutely the most effective I have ever had.

  3. I simply wanted to thank you so much again. I am not sure what I would have made to happen in the absence of the tips and hints contributed by you relating to this topic. It was a very terrifying setting in my view, however , spending time with this expert fashion you resolved it made me to cry over delight. Now i am happy for this advice and in addition pray you find out what an amazing job that you’re doing training people today via your web site. Most likely you haven’t encountered any of us.

  4. I am just writing to let you understand what a really good discovery my cousin’s daughter had visiting the blog. She learned numerous details, which included how it is like to possess a marvelous giving mindset to make many more clearly understand some advanced matters. You really did more than her desires. Many thanks for displaying those important, healthy, informative as well as easy tips about the topic to Janet.

  5. I simply wanted to appreciate you again. I am not sure what I would have implemented without the type of information provided by you on my situation. This was a real frightening crisis for me, nevertheless being able to see a specialised manner you processed that made me to leap over joy. I’m just happy for your service and believe you know what a powerful job your are putting in teaching many people via your website. More than likely you have never come across any of us.

  6. My wife and i were now happy that Louis managed to finish up his researching by way of the precious recommendations he had from your own site. It is now and again perplexing to just always be releasing guidelines which people today may have been trying to sell. We keep in mind we have the website owner to give thanks to because of that. Those explanations you’ve made, the straightforward blog navigation, the friendships your site help engender – it’s everything fabulous, and it is assisting our son in addition to us believe that that article is awesome, and that’s especially serious. Thanks for the whole lot!

  7. I in addition to my buddies have already been reading through the best tips on your web blog while then developed a horrible feeling I never expressed respect to the site owner for those tips. All the guys became thrilled to read through all of them and have now without a doubt been tapping into these things. We appreciate you really being quite helpful as well as for pick out variety of outstanding resources millions of individuals are really desperate to know about. Our own sincere regret for not expressing appreciation to earlier.

  8. Thank you so much for providing individuals with an extraordinarily superb opportunity to read articles and blog posts from this blog. It is always so fantastic and jam-packed with a good time for me personally and my office mates to visit your web site not less than 3 times in a week to see the new guidance you will have. And indeed, I am just always fulfilled concerning the superb secrets you serve. Some 1 ideas on this page are in reality the most beneficial we have had.

  9. Needed to send you one tiny remark to say thank you yet again considering the marvelous ideas you have contributed here. It was simply shockingly open-handed of you to deliver extensively precisely what a number of us would’ve distributed for an ebook in order to make some cash for their own end, notably seeing that you could have done it in case you desired. The suggestions additionally acted to become a easy way to know that most people have similar zeal much like mine to know good deal more concerning this issue. Certainly there are lots of more pleasant instances ahead for individuals that view your site.

  10. I simply had to appreciate you once again. I am not sure the things that I might have tried in the absence of the entire information shown by you on this area. It absolutely was a frightful dilemma in my opinion, but witnessing this professional style you treated it took me to leap for delight. I am happy for the support as well as believe you are aware of an amazing job that you’re doing educating people today by way of your web page. I know that you haven’t come across all of us.

  11. I’m writing to let you be aware of of the great encounter my friend’s princess found going through your blog. She discovered plenty of pieces, which include what it is like to have a wonderful teaching nature to have a number of people clearly grasp a number of specialized subject matter. You truly exceeded people’s desires. Thanks for imparting these interesting, trusted, edifying and as well as unique tips about this topic to Tanya.

  12. I am glad for writing to let you be aware of what a exceptional experience my child undergone viewing your site. She came to find many pieces, not to mention what it’s like to have an amazing teaching mindset to let folks with no trouble master chosen complicated things. You really surpassed visitors’ expected results. Many thanks for showing such informative, safe, informative and easy tips on that topic to Lizeth.

  13. I have to show appreciation to the writer just for bailing me out of this particular condition. Because of looking out throughout the the net and getting recommendations which are not productive, I assumed my life was well over. Existing without the solutions to the problems you’ve fixed as a result of your good write-up is a serious case, as well as those which might have in a negative way affected my entire career if I had not encountered the blog. Your ability and kindness in taking care of almost everything was excellent. I’m not sure what I would’ve done if I had not come upon such a stuff like this. I can at this time look ahead to my future. Thanks very much for the reliable and result oriented guide. I will not be reluctant to endorse your web page to anyone who ought to have guidance on this situation.

  14. I want to express some appreciation to you for bailing me out of this particular scenario. Right after looking through the the web and getting concepts which are not helpful, I thought my life was over. Existing minus the strategies to the problems you have solved all through the short post is a crucial case, as well as ones which may have in a negative way affected my career if I hadn’t encountered the blog. Your own expertise and kindness in controlling every aspect was helpful. I am not sure what I would have done if I hadn’t come upon such a step like this. I’m able to at this moment relish my future. Thanks a lot very much for your skilled and results-oriented help. I will not think twice to propose the blog to any person who requires guidelines on this subject matter.

  15. I and my friends ended up following the nice hints on your web blog and then immediately developed a terrible suspicion I never expressed respect to the blog owner for those techniques. These men appeared to be for that reason stimulated to study all of them and have in effect clearly been taking advantage of them. I appreciate you for really being indeed considerate as well as for obtaining certain excellent subject areas most people are really eager to understand about. My personal honest apologies for not expressing gratitude to you earlier.

  16. I needed to draft you the very little remark in order to say thanks again for those amazing tips you’ve discussed in this article. It’s so tremendously generous with you to convey freely precisely what most of us could possibly have sold as an ebook in order to make some bucks for their own end, mostly since you could have done it if you decided. Those inspiring ideas as well served like the good way to comprehend most people have similar dream the same as my own to learn good deal more with reference to this issue. I think there are a lot more enjoyable occasions up front for those who read through your site.

  17. I am commenting to let you be aware of of the nice experience our princess had visiting your site. She figured out too many issues, including what it is like to possess a great giving style to have the rest very easily learn specific multifaceted subject matter. You undoubtedly exceeded her expectations. Thanks for providing these practical, healthy, edifying and in addition unique tips on the topic to Ethel.

  18. I wanted to write a quick message to be able to express gratitude to you for all of the fabulous guidelines you are posting at this website. My time intensive internet investigation has finally been recognized with reasonable strategies to talk about with my co-workers. I ‘d claim that many of us visitors actually are very much lucky to exist in a decent place with very many special professionals with insightful things. I feel rather lucky to have seen your entire website and look forward to many more pleasurable times reading here. Thank you once again for everything.

Leave a Reply