Keeping Your Life Together

Keep track of where your time and your money go to. I need to find a good job search. People lust after all sorts of stuff we have grown up with. It is not our place to point fingers and blame people. Though that is what draws us into deep dark temptation.

There is constant battle of good and evil all around us. When we can’t find acceptance or safety we have to change our situations and our friends.

Trusting the wrong people and wanting to be accepted more than anything especially by someone you have a deep desire for can kill.

Had to missed my interview today. Rescheduled for next Wednesday. Working at Bankers Life would be really neat. Heck any job would be neat… wait I take that back.

You have to keep yourself safe & doesn’t require that you look yourself up or your heart. When its time to grow up realize what is/isnt desirable being at the wrong time with the wrong people. Find your safety!

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Watch What We’re Slipping On

Waiting can be one of the hardest things you’ll ever learn ?. Like waiting patiently for the man of your life to hold you ?. To hold on to you through the storms of life ⚡. Which are always up and down like a roller coaster at Six Flags. I have heard and noticed dangerous things I shouldn’t have in the past 5-7 years.

Nothing that I am going to far into detail about. I had my first born Brandon ?‍?when I was 25, he is now 4 years old. My family has really been there more than I have given them credit for in the past. It’s sad how my Dad and his other workers have fought so hard for this country that is going out of control.

Hold on to what you got especially your own life. You can’t loose everything by thinking your need or even deserve better and bigger things. Things aren’t always bigger in Texas – like some people’s hearts. There are all sorts of personalities out there and life experiences. Though we have to know and stay true mainly to ourselves.


I have been in jail 4 times and on probation once since I was about 17. I have smoked since I was 16 and have had about 5 vehicles. Tragedies happen everyday and there’s no reason we should brag about this stuff. We are too use our past life to create a better tomorrow. With patience and hard work it can get better we learn and grow everyday. It’s necessary to be thankful for every little thing you got.

We have worked hard for everything we have and we know what we can and can’t walk away with. Let it go before it takes over your life. Know when to run and when to fight meanwhile knowing what’s yours and whats mine. I had a lot of times growing up when I would spend plenty of time by myself. What we we’re and are doing is no one’s business. As a Christian we are too shine the light. We are here to help but no we are not yours and not to stalk. We are not the wishful bean stalk.

Things are replaceable and people aren’t! Some people need things more than we do but we can’t give everything we have. Especially when it’s killing you and making your life hard to live.

Life could be everything we are planning on…

I have used planners for several years of my life. Several of them have been misplaced. We shouldn’t look back at the age of 45 and fall even deeper into the wishing well of things we never even tried to accomplish. I am not your mamma or your guardian after you hit a certain age no one really is.

We are selfish by nature and we are tempted every hour of our lives. We float between the ups and downs of life. Pain and sorrow can last forever and it takes work to get over past hurt. It is necessary to listen, forgive, be humble, and also be loving. Personally people will always be wanting to critique your work and mock your obedience.

We need to begin by obeying our parents, couches, teachers, respectful relationships. If not there will be a lot of heartache and regret for years to come. We need to be learning every day and spending time on something worthwhile. Take some time to look up self help articles and do research on topics that struck your needs.


Time for work, play, balancing our finances and then the fun part of shopping. I bought some new outfits for this summer and my laundry is in the washer. Everything comes with a cost, as a child my parents would tell me that nothing in this world is free. As a growing young adult I used to be very self sacrificing and hard on myself.

I am starting to lighten up as I’ve been fortunate to light up these cigarettes my parents have bought me. Since I’v woken up the hard truth that even cigarettes are expensive at times. We can chose to be selfish or giving the choice is ours and no one can make it for us. Don’t listen to them and be careful who your friends are.

How dare you complain especially about things that are not yours. In those difficult times its best to get away. Read, or take a walk, or take a relaxing shower. There is a big difference between love vs. lust and life vs. death.

Don’t be too distracted by what is kinda of important but do your best to stay focused on doing what is best for you and those around you.

Moving Around To Be Healthy

Who doesn’t like to lay in their beds all day long ?. If we all could we sure as heck would. Though how are you supposed ? to have anything in life if this is all you do.

It’s damaging to your body and being stagnant ? is not good for the human mind. I went to Harvest America ?‍? this weekend. It was a really great experience.

When I went to Harvest America I bought this book set “The Greatest Stories Ever Told” – Greg Laurie. It’s s two book box set ?. The stories are really good and have stopped my writers block.

I really haven’t worked out in a long – long time ?. Though I want to be healthy in body, mind, and spirit. My mom Christy’s blog at . She writes on health topics.

There have been a lot of tragic things happening this year and we definitely need to be praying and studying God’s word.

Though this is a personal choice. When it boils down to it its really all down to the choices we are making. We can choose good or evil.

We will have nothing to gain if we don’t keep ourselves active. My email address is full of applications looking for my next place of work.

I’m really praying that things work out with my family later this year. I would like to get out of this half way home sooner than later though not everything is up to me.

This Heart May Be Missing – I’m still an Alias

Eventually, we have to grow up and we just have to stop all childish behavior we’re constantly changing. God helps us along the way but we have to give Him the chance to move and help us. I have stopped writing on my last blog which was ?? Simply because I wanted to change to WordPress for the community aspect of having the following and read option.

Here’s to growing up I’ll be 31 next month ?. I have a great family that is being supportive ?‍?‍?‍?  and even that has been a changing environment right now. I left my parents house in March after dropping out of University of Texas at Arlington and having a run-in with the law in which I went to jail. I ended up going to jail three times last year and don’t plan on going back or stepping out of line of the law again.

I am currently living in a Group Home, in Fort Worth – Texas ?. I was able to move back home and I was there for December and January. Though I had to drop out of University of Texas at Arlington again after getting sick at school. I was then sent to the group home after I spent fifteen days in Millwood.

An earlier discussion I had with my mother ?‍? when she dropped me off at the halfway house was about how we grew up spoiled. Or at least how we need to be thankful for every blessing we have.

My Dads in the military ? my family has had it’s up and downs. Now it is my turn ? Adult life.

My family, boyfriend, and friends that have known me (well for the most part) have helped a lot in the last 7 years to get over my childish fears.


We have to plan out and try to stay as close to our true values as we can. One of the hardest things in life is to figure out yourself. You really have to dig in and set out and know what you want. When I was young I didn’t have it all figured out although a lot of young people think they do. My 4-year-old son has been a blessing to our whole family.

This weekend was one of the best weekends I have had in a long time. I no longer want to discuss what I use to do about partying and drugs and it really isn’t anyone’s business. When we fall down we have to be able to pull ourselves up again. I hope not everyone goes through this but living on the streets can teach you a lot too. Though the concert the church I attend was able to go to the AT&T stadium and enjoy Harvest America.

Harvest America with Greg Laurie and listening to Switchfoot was great. Blessed my parents helped me out last night financially. As I look for a job and get ready to start paying off these large student loans. I have an interview at Bankers Life on Wednesday I’m needing part time work. Since I am on SSDI and can’t earn more than $1,000.

When I was younger I thought that was a lot of money. In the adult world that isn’t really enough to live off of. Most of us will work until the day we die. My father wakes up at 4:30am to go to work and I really look up to him. Today Brandon had Tennis Camp and Saturday a Tball game. I couldn’t be anymore thankful for my parents providing these things we have grown up with and taking care of my son.

As we grow older we find that we are recieving more respect the better we do. It is too easy to slip up on what we are supposed to do. There are so many in the crowd pointing fingers that we coulda, woulda, shoulda done especially ourselves. We can get so hard on ourselves we end up on our death bed – remember it is NEVER too late.