Thanks For Dividers & People

Thanks For Dividers & People

Maybe I should have taken a problem and just waited on the right timing…

In all science classes you have to have a problem to what we need a solution. Which is more than just contact and prescription sunglasses in which the Doctor I did get my perscription is only messed up about making frames. Also the one I only spent about three months working for is, well isn’t my problem. After learning as much as I can about the elements tell me will I be happy. Will I ever stop and just appreciate from others. 

Maybe like myself I was just as greedy, without much of being envious. We need to step down just a notch and let those in proper authority take over. It isn’t up too you actually it’s up the Government and go ahead and admit it. Your either for or against, silent or able, or pride vs. prejudice. As I write more about my faith I am hard pressed that my faith has gone smaller than a mustard seed. A word in which I slung from a slinger only once so long ago. Did it – it deffinitly didn’t need to pricetag its self that That Far.

Don’t RUSH: What you actually ask for and asked for… Yeah! Look at my mouth and wish for what – water – No not my salivated problem. What are you doing at my place at my age?! Right – NVM & NM. My old notebooks and sketch books never asked for your ink or your ink job. So why are you bringing up and into what my name or my badge at and almost any and every job in which I have and will continue to have. 

I am not your GREEK student who tried to ever use another persons name. It’s something I never even wanted. For I am happy being that emo girl with a lonely heart it doesn’t need to categorize and demean from us. #TP

To say what through the most important communication tool I have and tools I have is the most dangerous things you could be doing. I don’t need to walk up to what vehichle for what item for what endangerment. In which it pushes everyday to get down to the work it is needing to do in the first place. To pick up someone elses work and simply get away with what #CSI and #NET in which it has trapped itself long ago.

Why are you looking at it that way. The system on this acceptance scale has stopped at 5 in which all and any articles to keep this going into motion need to be accepted into all realms.

The lady at what?! GaGa & Gig & Gag…
Group Home #666 isn’t opening our WIFI. In which several of our bills are included for this $675 payment. What Am I scared to get kicked out again. Ah poor baby what my father wouldn’t like it. Not everything in this world is worth it. P.S. I’v heard some of these womens unfortunately mens mouths far too much.

None of which of any of these parties especially tables would really want and some don’t stop or turn around until it is FAR too Late. Lady we are not your problem. Ms. Jackson we are NOT your problem.

Which while working I was always wondering if this was the way of the Bosses which why would you want to go mess with the managers and bosses. I didn’t understand at that young of an age without much of being around this… i was alway on the grind. Recently I have been affected and feectionate about my father telling me to slow down and enjoy life. All in which I haven’t even stopped and smelt many roses. 

Especially not from our BG Cooks or whatever these I’m Still Questioning what they are?! What are you needing?! Which even my own mother – my real mother told me. A Major thing I have stood up too this year. I will not be a PriceTag.

I need you all too go is all you have heard from me for several years. “Go forth and conquer your own mole hills and don’t ask questions like where did it come from.” That friend does or doesn’t care anymore for a reason and that was that and you accept it. Except nights I would have fun and yes I had groups and no I’m 31 and not going to follow in this deadly trap.

Waking up to Silence Of The Lamb + Walking Lamp  = That Turned (U) As A Vaporizer… Is one of my Science Questions – I shouldn’t have to pay and repay every time I have a problem or even want a solution. Now should I?!

I didn’t have to tell you or your B* every job or every application I have ever gotten or put in for. In fact I think the vaporizers in theory came from “Great Oldwest Cafe”!

Which I lost on the streets and sold! Sold so it can whatever my question?! I lost about 3 of them and without a trace so if that’s what happens. For me if thats what happened learn from it and don’t let it happen again. “Play No Game” you didn’t go to class to do that did you. Or is it “I forgot who #Jay #JohnnaFloyd even was as it looks at its art and lit and wants and even expects money out of its own poor mouth. You’d be dumb to really complain. After you have pulled a double shift you would be tired and not needing much besides rest. They have told me that even College/University is no race. 

No B* You picked out and up to a secret compartment dept. and hidden in the GoodWills Market. Which is in my sons hands and he can stuff whatever he needs to in that compartamentalized stored up lock box. That used to be used for methadone and money.

I didn’t need to go traveling somewhere and could be a U Hauled my entire Thoughts to and Through and then right back to Me & Myself & Him! Don’t ask me which one Kuzz It’s HIS & I’m NOT UR Problem + AM I! Meanwhile He lets me be me and if I love him and even don’t want to spend much time or whatever it isn’t and never will be up to YOU. Chesire Cat “Who Are You?” Alice In Wonderland.

HMMM !!! Let my Nannie and My Witnesses and My Nurse. Meanwhile I’ll never say Doc Doc Docter to any of it. 

How did I meet my favorite spot to sit and chill at this campus?! The third story APT. & placed my elbow up there “I Could – Little Engine That Could”

You don’t go to the CLUB (o)(o) to look at Lizards in a Lounge and walk and talk and play around >WHAT< & >WATER< & That’s why I “Don’t like THE ??? Church >CRY<! Why would you like to GO to Dallas?!

Mom: No Johnna you will always love and respect the church after all it is where you came from. So never forget where you came from. Or they’ll forever haunt you with the wolves again.

Secret = They ARE Coming for What?! Water?! – – – Your Not Getting My ??? Computer… I hope their not coming to get my Father’s In Vest ? Ment /Mint!
Your Problem was probably the MOST Expensive Adventure of All Year! Oh Oops that’s why I smoked so extremely MUCH!

When You Enter These Gates

Somedays it feels good when you cry to yourself about a loved one. I feel a lot of guilt and shame for what our materials have become. Though there could have been bigger consequences. Realizing every choice is yours but the consequences are your also.

It is God and your man and not even your place. I have to let go my own personal pride & realize who I am and what what it is I want. I never wanted to be in a half way home. Spent time on the streets in DFW area. Really wishing there was a bus station. 

I feel torn and thrown around life an afghan rug. Kuzz Baby doesn’t want me to work so this is my work and I haven’t made anything off this blog after article and article. Readings and readings of stats though if I keep working hard at it… It will happen.


IGXO Cosmetics

” Stay In School & Find Her Betrayal at the first sign of whose lipstick…”

$3,000 in debt for simply dropping out to UTA this Spring 18″ and it is my responsibility. Through a ghostly aura I am getting through the Joyce Myers : Battlefield Of The Heart the love of money and the sake of love. Days when we could successfully go to Barnes & Nobles and be safe and set our educational goals.

I did get to visit my parents house this weekend but only for a few hours. My son had a lot of fun playing in both the bath and the shower. Like a Navy Seal. My periods have been weird all year. Probably best to stay safe and comfortable when you are leaking. An unplanned pregnancy can happen at any time.

Here’s Help For My Sister 2 Sister & Situation 2 Situation

Got a new magazine today – – the Enquirer a male fashion magazine. My man is hot enough to be in the Enquire but I get jealous of the attention he gets and I’m hoping he gets it from the attention I get. There have been reasons we have not been able to get together in five years. I believe it is pride and jealousy I don’t desire what other women have. I believe in getting help when we/her/she needs it.

I believe we make a good team.

I try to do the best I can to represent my boyfriend and guy friends of ours as special and unique as they can be. My sisters especially my stripper sisters & sorority sisters have been picked for each place and we don’t have to complain that much about place to place when it’s PlayStation and Monopoly. To me, it’s all the cards that are dealt at this Casino one of the best things I have done with a guy friend. The reason I go to spot to spot is to take care of my people. I believe that is my right to check on my/our people the right way. This is the lesson I dropped out because of on Feb 7th of this year and pretty much last year. Two years in a row spending and having to repay the right amount $50 a month for what happened to a Senior – I thought it was itis. Didn’t realize it was Midas. What exactly are you framing because we have individual notes.

What’s Your Favorite Scent?!


Each person is important to me and yes we have all gone through tough times. Though we don’t allogate to be alligators and trap them into the traps I have always been scared of. Do We?

The Purge – Purchased The News Paper

The Purge is one heck of a movie! Click rewind and set the scenes we are women and men within big dreams. We went to College and some of my friends are just starting college in order to better ourselves. I believe and support equal opportunity employers and employment.

My friend, as well as myself, have grown up in the church political system and have put our/my kid into the church situation. Why are they begging to break a system that a family sets up if it weren’t for my parents little Brandon wouldn’t have the opp. to go to ECC which is a private school set by Fielder. For we are on the Field…   We have learned through some people are extremely selfish. Some people “SNAP” in situations they have to own up too.

I trusted Him and I Still Do – The Ring Fit but I don’t have to be flashy I’ll save that for my graphics.

We have learned to remain silent in the moment of her passing Husband which she cherished her relationship. We miss our friends and loved ones since we have also lost our children to the support system.

My friend Ciara Bhadd longs for a mother to daughter relationship and I believe that is where we can help these ladies instead of being rude to them they can look up to us. In which I have studied PR and My daughter is Natasha. We will find and maintain these relationships through mannerisms that we are taught by an even older group of women.

Being a good parent is important

To me but how can I go to work without an SS Card?! I have to work for everything I need for me and my son Brandon. My friend Ciara has 7 children and I’m fortunate I do not. We both deserve inner peace and clarity.  My last domain was Yes my jealousy level kind of got big when I had to lose my jobs and no one would tell me.

Yes, my jealousy kind of got my ego backstabbed when they shook our ingredients together and put in this versus that.

I will be happy once she has inner peace and clarity. – Ciara Bhadd

I get jealous when I’m falsely accused of something I didn’t do. Well, I also need credit for what I have done. Another point is when people lie to me. Also when I have things & people pushed in my face.

Article by Article I believe I can help these women. 

For even I was taught prostitution and have gone up and down like my stats chart depicts but that is of no use to point out especially in class and say we are filthy. It is a bad road and I have heard the stories from the inside of jail cell walls We have to look for the proper sources of employment and help. The first step about the streets is to keep your own damn self-safe from it. Question everything. Ciara is a Med Doctor. I am that writer heck I a CEO of whatever I need and want to be.

Loving My Body

Loving My Body

When you think about love what comes to mind what about your body? Body image a persons perception of their own sexy attractiveness. Wrapped in my pj’s and especially my Dear Foam bathrobe is when I can feel I have a sexy body wrapped in my own skin. Sexy Skin it’s good to always keep it shaved and smooth. Even though I haven’t seen my sexy man in 5 years we still talk and any moment he could surprise me.
In this group home full of us girls and the guys are in a different part of the house across the hall.

What does it take you to feel sexy! Stop looking at yourself as an overweight punching bag. The more pain you take out on yourself the more pain you’ll have scared when you get over 50.


I’ve worked or work for Suicide Girls and was accepted about 10 years ago.

A few years ago my body was even in a porno perhaps 15 years ago! While my roommates well ones a playboy bunny, ones an actress, and ones a dancer. No nothing to brag about and something that was taken from me as a young kid.

The love and respect for our bodies is something important. I have always been a problem in that way though not to the extreme where some want to impress those they are calling. Like the story Gentlemen Callers. I had my fun and now that I’m 31 it’s time to grow up.

My Dad still says I’m not getting married till Brandon who is 5 is out of the house. Which in all reality especially if I calm down and slow down a little bit is a long time. I am a hustler by heart and it truly is ride or die.

The Tattoo Artist That Loves Me

I first kissed a boy in pre-school I didn’t like it. I’ve been an underground musician and model. I also got accepted to suicide girls but never did any work for them. I have 5 tattoos back, both hips, ankle, and right shoulder. I’ve had my tongue pierced by my best guy friend 5 years ago and it got sucked out.


For Ink Contact Kylezzzz Brattin 

I don’t think we are all happy with our self image. My boyfriend who does tattoos hasn’t done one on me and I fear he doesn’t want to touch me. A recent friend at the group home who only stayed a few days said she was sold at a young age into sex slavery.

This year I have really dealt with sexual harassment. Not only is it worse coming from my own mind but it’s even worse when you hear it coming fro congregations. Is it something we have done or something we are doing?

5 Tips to help you love your body image

5. Don’t think about how other’s bodies look. My Dad “Can you tell I’m Daddy’s little girl?” told me that somewhere someone will always be prettier, smarter, funnier, and more wealthy than you will ever be. We can’t sit there and compare it’s a waste of precious time.



4. Remind Yourself What You Like. I like my complexion and my shortness. I don’t think it will be too hard for you to find things you like too if you try hard enough. Like the “Little Engine That Could” you can find things you like.


3. Beauty is a state of mind not just what you see in the mirror. We all see things the way we want to see them basically the way the mind thinks of them. When it comes down to it it really matters about our attitude about what’s going on.

2. Surround Yourself With Positive People. OK maybe this is something I could work on better to become that positive role model. I’m sure a lit up cigarette and a curse word on the tip of my tongue and a torn up outfit isn’t extremely flattering. People will help you but first you have to be willing to help yourself.

1. Read up on anything you were wondering about changing about your body. It’s never too late to find something new to update your look with. Take a trip to the mall and get your makeup done at Sephora like I did for my birthday. Or work on self-help to make yourself beautiful on the inside then out. You can read my beauty product reviews here on

My Makeup Moves

Hippie Go Lucky from benefit this set is amazing with it’s cute little samples.

Make Up For Ever Ultra HD Base Foundation

Smashbox Eye-shadow Pallette : Cover Shot in Golden Hour

LA Colors Contouring Palette : I use as blush

Maybelline Fit Me Pressed Powder: That I should probably throw out bought it last year.

Dior fusia lip gloss

Loreal true match concealer

Moving From Ugly Duckling to Beauty Warrior

I am taking guest post if anyone is interested or I’d like to arrange an interview post. I don’t have anything to pay you but I think it would be nice to have a guest on this blog. Maybe a beauty guru or someone who really knows the competition within relationships.

Right now I am studying on how to make blog income traffic. Traffic means more page views and more page views means more people get my message that I try to send across. As an article has suggested 2,000 or 3,000 words. That will take a lot of revising and rewriting after posting so you have something to look at.



Learning Your SS #

Learning Your SS #

Went to the Social Security Office yesterday morning to get a new Social Security Card. My dad works at the Social Security office. Learning how to get along without my parents and being a mature adult about things has really been help coming from the Group Home. You can only order 10 in a lifetime and yesterday made the 6th I’ve ordered. It’s a must to keep up with this one when it comes in. Which should be in about a week. Have had two request for job interviews and waiting to hear back about the times.

Needing a job… Hopefully I can find a cashiering job to work part-time. I need to start paying back student loans. I owe FAFSA $18,000 in student loans and have a deferment until 2021. I have a whole pile of old textbooks that I don’t know if I want to take back to halfprice books or not. My monthly payment is set at $160.

School is about to start and I’m not going this semester. Though my son will be in pre-k four out of five of the days this fall. Things to pack in your backpack planner I use Happy Planner which has a gold leather jacket on it. I love happy planner and have used one the last two years. Other things you may want in your backpack include a water bottle, a notebook, your laptop, headphones, and your wallet. Good luck to everyone who is starting school back up. Wal-mart is packed with school supplies.

Just spent $20 on something I didn’t need to. On stuff I didn’t need to and I shared with my roommate. Bought a Coca-Cola today and my Dad put in my $100 and I bought 2 packs of Marlboro Black 100’s at the corner store for -$13 before we came to their house.

Had a good time for my Birthday and my roommates is next. Internet and TV aren’t working at the group home. Last weekend my Dad bought 2 new TV’s and bought me two pairs of jeans and we celebrated my Birthday. My late Birthday present came in and now I’m able to wear my new prescription sunglasses.

Not going to school this semester or for a while. Since financially I can’t afford to go. Wanted to go to Tarrant County College, and take a science course. Though I don’t have the money to pay for it and I also don’t have a vehicle to get more to and from there.

I am taking my time to learn about how to be a blog business owner and dedicating all my time to my blog. I hope to make $300 dollars by the end of this month. While increasing daily in page views. As well as getting through and being able to Yoast SEO all my blog entries to make my content better.

Dad picked me up about 4 PM and now I am over at his house. My son, mom, and little sister Emz are traveling to Mississippi and will be there until about Wednesday. So I’ll be here until they get back. To use the internet and be able to watch TV and spend some time with Dad.

What kind of personality quirks do you have? Besides my mental illnesses there is something in my mouth that I am talking to sometimes it freaks me out and sometimes it helps me. I wonder all the time if these they seem to be people are real they are names and faces of the past. Now that I have my dentures together they gnarsh down and talk.

I had a rough childhood I’m not going to lie with most of my grandparents dying at around the age of 10. My son will probably have to go through the same things. i stayed a good bit with my grandparents on my Dads side before they passed. I was just as spoiled in the little town of Houston, Mississippi.

There are so many things we could be doing better at the same time. We all still have time to work on our personalities. I would like to with the help of Katie Treadway.

Describe how to be more Charismatic: being like a human magnet in fact that’s a better way to describe how my teeth work when these things are talking to me. I’m a leo and a past fashion model and I was a suicide girl back in my 20s. So it come naturally for me to brighten people up when I come into the scene. I would like to provide tips for learning to be more Charismatic.

  1. Really Start Taking Care of Yourself: My Dad is at a stage now where he has to watch what he eats and drinks because of dietary reasons. If not he will have to take insulin and he hates needles. I need to be mindful of the same thing as I drink down two cokes in a row.
  2. Pay Attention To Your Tone of Voice and Posture: I have had many complements through out my life on the sound of my voice but to me I sound sorta like a chipmunk. We also need to watch posture and the way we sit and stand so try to be a little more straighter my dear darling.
  3. Be A Good Support System: I can not say it enough how much of a help this is for people when they really need it. I have had some really tough times and though I haven’t seen those faces in a while and I do appreciate every moment of it they helped me up out of my heart and a hard place. Especially when I was in a woman’s Bible study at Lori’s house. When I first had Brandon and was scared, lost, and confused about my trials as a single mother.
  4. Be Proud Of Your Accomplishment: Don’t look at how far you have to go look at how far you’ve come. I know that came from somewhere but I don’t remember. I am glad I have made it too my son’s almost 5th birthday. While most of those days I was finishing my sophomore thru junior year in college.
  5. Work on Your Self-Esteem Issues and Help those around You Do the same. We all have our own flaws and trust me they aren’t as obvious to others as you could and might think. I have learned to be comfortable and I think comfort is a gift to our personality. Pick up Self-Help books if you can read it all the way through or read articles on the topic. Don’t forget self-care also


Equalizer 2 in your coffee ☕?

My numbers and my stats don’t equal the pain, trials, or test I have had to endure. This morning my Nanny (Ms. Jefferson) took me to get my lithium meds.

Yesterday I went to MHMR & had my monthly injection. We get treated as good as we treat ourselves.

In the end it is a competition & in the end the ones who have cheated this GAME. WILL HAVE TO PAY.

SAW parts of Equalizer last night. Tejas is in extreme triple digit heat. $32 left for the month… Slowly watching my balance trickle as I have all year.

Each person cost something but the choice is yours on how to deal with it. My sisters have hundreds of likes & comments a day. I feel mostly personally attacked.

Who is this too share with? Don’t RUN with someones NAME. Our Reputation is mostly all we have as a group or as an Individual.

We’re Golden & We have choices everyday = who we truly are. Wake up America & Smell the Coffee. Equalizer and not Sugar!

Tested Thru Trials

Tested Thru Trials

Are there such things as channels? What about tunnel vision. Why is there water all over my parent’s floor? Now even I am acting too lazy to clean it up or help the fine print of parenting. My parents have done most of the hard work with Brandon including potty training.

While my son (I mean our son ♣️♥️♠️) has a bloody nostril as we all proceed to pile into the bathroom to take care of him. It isn’t my business in the first place is it! Though it sure as heck isn’t theirs to even think about. We’ve already had our run-ins with CPS.

How did prey attack predator when the predator is supposed to attack prey. Geology rocks what pigments do we play. What do the time × force = time? I’ve attempted to take every science course at the University of Texas at Arlington though I wasn’t able to complete even one. I did pass Biology at TCC with a C and I was happy to get out of there.

Is this what we were all counting on & depending on. I am not a piece of pinned up hair with a pin and that is not the door. In which we try to unlock when we know we are not welcome especially not in this suite.


The trials we face become the things we are in the future. If that’s true these last two years would send me down the gutter for sure. Though I can’t think of it that way. I refuse to live in Orange Is The New Black straight jacket life. Don’t put me in a room with white walls and make it so I can always have my meds in the morning.

Though this Spring was messed up, to begin with, I would have failed my test that’s for certain. I was already scoring 43% on them and I may never go back to finish what I already started.

Watch What We’re Slipping On

Waiting can be one of the hardest things you’ll ever learn ?. Like waiting patiently for the man of your life to hold you ?. To hold on to you through the storms of life ⚡. Which are always up and down like a roller coaster at Six Flags. I have heard and noticed dangerous things I shouldn’t have in the past 5-7 years.

Nothing that I am going to far into detail about. I had my first born Brandon ?‍?when I was 25, he is now 4 years old. My family has really been there more than I have given them credit for in the past. It’s sad how my Dad and his other workers have fought so hard for this country that is going out of control.

Hold on to what you got especially your own life. You can’t loose everything by thinking your need or even deserve better and bigger things. Things aren’t always bigger in Texas – like some people’s hearts. There are all sorts of personalities out there and life experiences. Though we have to know and stay true mainly to ourselves.


I have been in jail 4 times and on probation once since I was about 17. I have smoked since I was 16 and have had about 5 vehicles. Tragedies happen everyday and there’s no reason we should brag about this stuff. We are too use our past life to create a better tomorrow. With patience and hard work it can get better we learn and grow everyday. It’s necessary to be thankful for every little thing you got.

We have worked hard for everything we have and we know what we can and can’t walk away with. Let it go before it takes over your life. Know when to run and when to fight meanwhile knowing what’s yours and whats mine. I had a lot of times growing up when I would spend plenty of time by myself. What we we’re and are doing is no one’s business. As a Christian we are too shine the light. We are here to help but no we are not yours and not to stalk. We are not the wishful bean stalk.

Things are replaceable and people aren’t! Some people need things more than we do but we can’t give everything we have. Especially when it’s killing you and making your life hard to live.

This Heart May Be Missing – I’m still an Alias

Eventually, we have to grow up and we just have to stop all childish behavior we’re constantly changing. God helps us along the way but we have to give Him the chance to move and help us. I have stopped writing on my last blog which was ?? Simply because I wanted to change to WordPress for the community aspect of having the following and read option.

Here’s to growing up I’ll be 31 next month ?. I have a great family that is being supportive ?‍?‍?‍?  and even that has been a changing environment right now. I left my parents house in March after dropping out of University of Texas at Arlington and having a run-in with the law in which I went to jail. I ended up going to jail three times last year and don’t plan on going back or stepping out of line of the law again.

I am currently living in a Group Home, in Fort Worth – Texas ?. I was able to move back home and I was there for December and January. Though I had to drop out of University of Texas at Arlington again after getting sick at school. I was then sent to the group home after I spent fifteen days in Millwood.

An earlier discussion I had with my mother ?‍? when she dropped me off at the halfway house was about how we grew up spoiled. Or at least how we need to be thankful for every blessing we have.

My Dads in the military ? my family has had it’s up and downs. Now it is my turn ? Adult life.

My family, boyfriend, and friends that have known me (well for the most part) have helped a lot in the last 7 years to get over my childish fears.


We have to plan out and try to stay as close to our true values as we can. One of the hardest things in life is to figure out yourself. You really have to dig in and set out and know what you want. When I was young I didn’t have it all figured out although a lot of young people think they do. My 4-year-old son has been a blessing to our whole family.

This weekend was one of the best weekends I have had in a long time. I no longer want to discuss what I use to do about partying and drugs and it really isn’t anyone’s business. When we fall down we have to be able to pull ourselves up again. I hope not everyone goes through this but living on the streets can teach you a lot too. Though the concert the church I attend was able to go to the AT&T stadium and enjoy Harvest America.

Harvest America with Greg Laurie and listening to Switchfoot was great. Blessed my parents helped me out last night financially. As I look for a job and get ready to start paying off these large student loans. I have an interview at Bankers Life on Wednesday I’m needing part time work. Since I am on SSDI and can’t earn more than $1,000.

When I was younger I thought that was a lot of money. In the adult world that isn’t really enough to live off of. Most of us will work until the day we die. My father wakes up at 4:30am to go to work and I really look up to him. Today Brandon had Tennis Camp and Saturday a Tball game. I couldn’t be anymore thankful for my parents providing these things we have grown up with and taking care of my son.

As we grow older we find that we are recieving more respect the better we do. It is too easy to slip up on what we are supposed to do. There are so many in the crowd pointing fingers that we coulda, woulda, shoulda done especially ourselves. We can get so hard on ourselves we end up on our death bed – remember it is NEVER too late.