I don’t like not being able to see out of one eye and it’ll be two more weeks till I can even order my glasses. Planning on getting a pair of regular and a pair of sunglasses from goggles4u.com for $20. Which wouldn’t have happened if I wasn’t fighting for my place at this group home.
A new teal journal came in the mail last week and my new double banded diamond ring is around my neck with an old chain from a necklace that used to have a music charm on it was. Slowly I’ll recieve what I ordered from these sites. I also need to get a JUUL charger already and some more cartridges.
I like how these posted links worked out on here. Also repacked my small pink duffle bag for the center. I am going to try Minimalism! Trying to cut out unwanted cost and start living on a budget. I am trying to live the best way I can right now & I need to start getting out more.
Excited to get my 12 fine-liner colored pens & stencils! But wanted to start using the bullet journal anyways.
Seems this stuff I ordered is coming in slower than I thought. Next month I can’t order even half of what I did this month.
I Don’t Know Where I’d Rather Be
For the most part my roommates and I all get along. Except for annoying and hurtful behavior which is why we get SSI. I go to see my Doctor not this monday but next monday at MHMR homeless clinic on Lancaster.
I’m not getting to see my family like I’d like and I am really starting to miss my son. Though I don’t know how to deal with him that well. I wish I had stuff to plan and money to do things and a job to work.
For the most part though; I know I’m not as happy as I could be. Deffinitly something I need to work on. Through the tons of research and relating it to daily life. I would like to go back to school but I’m already in so much debt from College that I can’t see straight.
I have been carrying my pink Cabela’s small duffel bag since last weekend when my Dad bought it. I am grateful to have a Dad that helps me out a lot. I am trying to keep my stuff as organized as possible and keep my things neat and orderly.
I have my black back pack, my black duffle bag, and my black carrier.
In my Pink Cabellas Duffel Bag
JUUL – I have Mango cartridges and have a charger in there; with my JUUL Charger that I had to buy seperately online from Ebay. Though mine doesn’t always smoke. I still have fun using it.
Cotton Candy Body Spray – clowns!
Pens, Sharpies, and Dry Erase Marker
Glitter and Jewels and Glue Sticks
Right Zipper Pouch:
Deck Of Cards
TI Pink Calculator
Mini Ash Tray
Mini Glass Spoon
Left Zipper Pouch:
Small Bottles of Essense
Argan Oil, Tea Tree Oil, Cocunut Oil, and Olive Oil
I have finally gotten my anger adjusted; yes I have Bipolar Disorder. I can get really upset … almost to a ticking time bomb. After all we wanted a simple bath bomb and you know what we had the right ingredients to make it. Unfortunately that money isn’t for you and you know it. Meanwhile that body isn’t for you and you know it. Though God and I both love you and what we have been trying to stand for.
First ask it … If it hits that Target <app> Market. In which it’s your fault for walking up to my register in the first place and whatever happens to you happens. I was trouble the moment I walked into this Dog Town. Don’t bring the cheerleader; whos name is faith into the story at all. At least not into my story. After all it’s my story and I can leave it the way I like it and I have the right to accept it or not.
It mostly can’t have a normal conversation; while looking at dead bodies in beds that are about the size of cots that cost about $675 a month. Or I could be in the mission with fear that my Laptop and my things would be stolen again this year like they we’re last year. In which; you have to admit you did help with me walking off. From my son and my truck my father gave me. Though as much as we want to blame God. We both know it went deeper than that.
Well suck it up that’s being an adult. I wouldn’t have made it this far without Gods help. Ever since about three weeks in Millwood last year I have been in this Group Home. I am trying to get last Christmas and Starting of this wasted pricey Spring Semester out of my mind.
You don’t come back to it after it has written things like lifeasacollegemom.net or myapatheticheart.net <Mine>. Mostly; wierd things have happened to my blogs as I have grown and continued to write my blog/s on almost a daily basis.
Now our job is too understand these <Crooks> If we really want this oil Dr. Ink is <Timely> talking about! Something in which my heart just couldn’t permit me to get into. I know my parents really don’t want to help me with this costly problem and I’m hoping they will be and understand.
It is quite easy for any female fatality to open its doors and open its chat book and march away. The damn penguins didn’t have to follow me. They wanted attention from things they didn’t do in the first place. Where it’s already an establishment in which you get credit for what you have worked on. Not on what you have or who you are associated with at least that was always in the back of my Christian Ideology. That God was always wanting more from us than we could even understand.
I’m questioning to DeRidder #5 “Are They” That ungrateful. That cotton picking B* just knocked over and pushed me even off this bed. Now I am here questioning if that’s even legal. Something I don’t have to deal that many cards or restraunt job pieces too. While I have with my own two hands and feet. What do you mean? Fought Three Times & She’s Too Small Too Fight?! If it was something that I felt strongly about then I have every right too.
Trust built the foundation; I am not trying to break what I have worked so hard to build. Then why God did I run away from my responsibilities in the first place?! I have had choices, consequences, and rights all in which at 30-31 have made up my own pattern to the lifestyle I am going to live. Even when others; are less than encouraging as it nears another holiday Thanksgiving. Which I’m hoping my Family is still thankful for me. As it is in a half-way home I am blessed beyond compare. Now is the time I just need to trust especially that which my Father “Kurt Floyd” has told me “Until the Day I Die”.
I have had my check garnished in half now instead of working with $100. I only have $50 to spend on what I want to each month. The problem I had at University of Texas at Arlington is making me pay big time. I’ve always been pretty much broke and what big blessings I did get came from My Dad.
Needing some clothes : Shop Women’s Clothing at Stage Stores. I’d like to get a new warm fuzzy jacket and a leather motorcycle jacket. Normally the most often thing bought with my $50 is cheap cigar cigarettes and maybe a $1 drink.
This month I bought myself three great gifts off the website GEEK
A ring, A Charm Necklace, & Essence… For $6.50
& A new black notebook at The Family Dollar for $5.
With Christmas coming up and Halloween in less than 14 days. Which I haven’t seen anything scary lately. I was having fun watching and playing the purge. I took Production last year and need to do more with it. I haven’t felt like getting in front of the Camera. I am not really feeling that loving to myself and my dad keeps saying I’m talking to myself.
I am kind of attention I am really getting from people. I want to be known for making people happy with themselves and I hope I was coming across in Arlington as a good worker. Though now my boyfriend is saying not to work. It may be a safety issue right now and maybe there is a reason why I don’t have my SS Card.
It’d be really awsome to go to another Haunted House and I haven’t been to an Event in a long time. I went in 2012 with work at The Spirit of Halloween. I got a bag of Smarties and saving the rest till Halloween haha that’ll be my candy for the Halloween. For the last three years I have had money to buy my son a constume – I think all three of them are Batman. I was wanting to go to the Pumkin Patch but my Dad said I was acting too wierd.
Blogging For Monetary Value
I hope my blog post are something you want to read and think about before you rush out there and make mistakes in life that you can’t recover from. It is said that Money is the root of all evil so if I was blogging only for money this would be a pointless endevor because it can’t come with us when God comes. Though I do need to make some money out of this website adventure.
I haven’t recieved a real comment… I have recieved 5 red colored comments in which are Private.
My Visitor Count must be messed up beyond belief
I must have gotten hacked and some one is behind the scenes of my blog
I am blaming and pointing fingers at sources that tell me how to make money from this blogging because all of them say about the same thing and their are no results.
They do not find me or my content of any interest. I was hoping to at least make a difference with my blog.
It’s ok to want to make money blogging but don’t sacrifice yourself for it. Needing to make sure I have my eye on the ball before hitting publish. I can go through my posts and re-write them and add to them and even change them.
Blogging For Readers of friends and family
Each person you come into contact with could be good or bad or a mixture of both. I honestly do not like to constantly be around people but enjoy their time now and again. I love at least hearing that people have read and appreciated a part or anything on my blog. During the time I have written.
Frame of mind; realize everybody is different and not everybody is going to like you. Always make sure to include a main image. Don’t use lies and manipulation to get your way. Soon you will be found out as to whether you can be trusted or not.
Make an online community for yourself by collecting links and talking with them about certain things. That are posts related and be honest and true to who you are. Be your own Rockstar and sing to your own tune. Market and Work where you know you fit best.
Writing Great Online Content = would I share this if I didn’t write it. What emotion are you appealing too?! Am I Connecting while teaching and telling them something new they can use for themselves.
Traffic To Get Optimum Views
A Call To Action – ask them to follow, share the post, or download the freebie.
Fill Out Social Media Bios – gain traffic & followers and potential clients.
Bring Hits To Old Posts – creating content takes time & it doesn’t have reinvented try to repurpose the content to get more hits. In the last month or two, I have only gotten about 222 hits.
Foundation for you to create a great place to place your information.
Take faith in advice while giving it time to grow and mature into something meaningful. As a strategy starts to show positive signs and you dig deeper to prioritize the strategy that is well faithful and has potential. We need promotion of the content; use the 80% Marketing and Distribution of information and 20% the actual information.
Getting Readers Who Really Trust You & Read & Learn From You.
To build a trusting audience and getting your readers to really trust you. You can make a living off blogging as long as you use the proper techniques and strategies. Trust is the key! Be real and transparent builds trust.
Be Personal + Relatable
PLUR! If there’s one thing I don’t regret in life it’s good memories and times with friends I have met and have been around in weird and strange situations. We are in those situations because we put ourselves in them. My boyfriend told me not to work again and put myself in the bad parts of Fort Worth. He cares & so does my parents but right now certain safety measures have to happen. Like this HalfWay home that I am staying in with these other three girls.
Break down walls and build connections with your audience. I want them to feel like they can come to me when they need guidance or questions that need answers. I am not perfect or drinking holy water and I am not afraid to admit to my mistakes. I am also a College Drop-Out!
Don’t try to fake it; people will love you for who you already are. We are learning every day & don’t give up on a bit of tip to make your work better. We need to learn about who you are and what you have to offer. It has to be worth the time and the money. If free content is good then they can imagine how great paid for content is going to be.
Facebook Discussion Boards & Don’t Ignore Your Audience.
Making sure you respond to every comment, email, message, etc. Take the time to acknowledge readers in order to build trust. They will come back to you because you have shown them you value them.
There are plenty of people out there that lie about it. Including the one to get your hopes up about “I make $100,000 a month…” or “I receive 100,000 page views. Prove that you are telling the truth & show your stats (I made an A in Stats). Be Reasonable – that much money from blogging is a bit out of this world… Not all the money you make is yours and you have to count expenses and taxes.
Be Consistent With Your Creations
Building Trust through consistency reacting to; how will your audience trust you if you aren’t consistent. Don’t just up and leave and disappear and stop posting daily/weekly/monthly. Don’t let your audience lose trust in you by playing the disappearing trick. The more consistent the more trusted.
Professional Appearance To Your Site
For trust and value in what you say there is a set tone of professionalism that you need in your writing and in your appearance. It has to look like a website that has value.
Most of the lessons I’ve learned in college at any of these Universities is something filled with every drop of information and the attitude of the professor is not really any of our business. Meanwhile, if you don’t like it then do not walk up to my table and complain. I probably would be happier in a cafe with money to use on my own selfishness than a set up for expensive crap I do not even find that attractive. The last place I ever really wanted to be was confind in a setting where I couldn’t find much to explore.
I remember how much and how big of a deal it was to get a costume when I was little especially between the ages of 12 to 15 but sweetheart your 40 wanting to look like a drag queen who needed every drop of glued on sequenced mermaid shampoo for my Baby and My Husbands damn sea colored eyes.
For a costume I have bought myself a dollar face sticker and I don’t think this was supposed to be who can wear the sleaziest or what they are saying Naughtiest thing in the country. Mostly growing up in the age of my 20s this was not something I wanted to be known for. Though being and accepted to things like Suicide Girls in which I have never taken a true photoshoot for did give me some pride. I did pornos and they don’t need to but if that is what they have done then most of the time there is nothing you can do to go behind them and clear that up.
That Is Why I Have Chosen The Major I have in PR & ADVT or is it mass communications?! in which I have every right to communicate every penny to earn every penny back.
How did you get that GIG or I mean *cough cough* what he said Gag in the first place. How did you take my old job and my only job in the first place. Don’t you know that is how me and my people eat what this church put in your face when I was about 15 to 17.
The person you are looking up to may hurt you … Reader BeWare 10/14/18
My Father Kurt stated “You have been writing some really wierd things lately…” First of all I’m suprised he is even looking. To begin with I always felt that my work was inadequate and insignificant to match or play matches with surroundings and fellow students.
If you haven’t noticed life in that Game is a huge competition and I didn’t really look at my following. In the beginning God created the Heavens and the Earth and unfortunately due to circumstances you filled it in with what you thought would make you & others around you; especially your family. Celebrate Recovery in January was supposed to bring support for me. Not another long desperate journey in which I have and had to pull myself out of. Be careful what you ask for, you just may get it.
Also be happy in the position you already in & accept yourself for everything you already are. No we do not have your money & especially when approaching someone do not begin to ask for what their lifes work has amounted to. For only our God who we should put full FAITH in has guided us through and to do and work on a daily basis. Especially with a $24,000 Student Debt Balance.
I can only pay back what I am able to in the time I am able to; mygreatlakes.org. When God gives you a calling you follow it. When the country gives you a responsibility your duty is to help the best way you can. When you have financial problems you are the person to take care of it. It is yours so deal with it with the cards you have been dealt – not to mention – one date is nothing compared to what they have actually “stated”.
We should have been able to trust our role models; i feel like i can’t for what its chased – what case?!
Public Relations has opened up doors that I have been afraid to open. Each person feels like a new un-opened book in which one simply word of mine could set it in a positive mood or the most negetive attitude you will ever see in your life. After visiting Arlington & Mansfield jail for a week a piece for shoplifting; which is something I have promised myself I would never do again.
A crime that if I ever commit again I would be looking at almost three years for. Unfortunately especially speaking to my 17 to 28 year old crowd they would do anything to push that into the wrong peoples faces. I shouldn’t even have to wake up with the thoughts of running away from the people that keep this country safe.
In Tarrant County Jail; I wrote and wrote and got only what my small hands and torn down heart could get. Scraps of paper and a stubby pencil. I believe if it wasn’t for that I would have been in there longer. I have not really changed from these same life lessons of writing. Every piece was thrown away after I left the cell. The streets around me grew more of a crowd and soon I was swamped out of my own two feet. Leaving me an OPP to call my Father & back to Millwood.
Different Settings we’re still mostly the same people… If not it could be a deamon which i’m not even really able to write or speak about. That is your battle – keep it.
No one wants your lifestory everytime you come up to them. Nor do they want you to be felt especially their spirit – Mostly I wouldn’t touch the person or the things that person has in order to find or obtain things for yourself. I didn’t try to create this spirit containment for any specific reasons and if I have I sincerely appologize.
Don’t be lustful for other peoples stuff or their grades, friends, or putting them back into the box in which they came here and unpacked with.
Know your own comfort zone and predetermine what direction to keep it cheap is. No that lady probably put me back into another trap especially with her mouth. In which who is there to dig me out of it – I was hoping it would be them but they are no where to be around. I wonder if they’ll ever see me again.
We needed a way to address things that are almost illegal for us to talk about because things are greedy and most of the things we need are getting messed with. I didn’t go into your store with nothing. While I do have a more successful time shopping in the first place where things are cheap. Maybe it was a problem of handing them money or love in the first place. Maybe that is age; I appreciate cleaning your Palace for the $20 I have spent on what was non of their business. I looked at it the right way that isn’t mine.
I can ask you any question I want to and accept a response or not in the way you want it heard or not. Regardless I believe others have heard you and heard you quiet enough.
Somedays it feels good when you cry to yourself about a loved one. I feel a lot of guilt and shame for what our materials have become. Though there could have been bigger consequences. Realizing every choice is yours but the consequences are your also.
It is God and your man and not even your place. I have to let go my own personal pride & realize who I am and what what it is I want. I never wanted to be in a half way home. Spent time on the streets in DFW area. Really wishing there was a bus station.
I feel torn and thrown around life an afghan rug. Kuzz Baby doesn’t want me to work so this is my work and I haven’t made anything off this blog after article and article. Readings and readings of stats though if I keep working hard at it… It will happen.
” Stay In School & Find Her Betrayal at the first sign of whose lipstick…”
$3,000 in debt for simply dropping out to UTA this Spring 18″ and it is my responsibility. Through a ghostly aura I am getting through the Joyce Myers : Battlefield Of The Heart the love of money and the sake of love. Days when we could successfully go to Barnes & Nobles and be safe and set our educational goals.
I did get to visit my parents house this weekend but only for a few hours. My son had a lot of fun playing in both the bath and the shower. Like a Navy Seal. My periods have been weird all year. Probably best to stay safe and comfortable when you are leaking. An unplanned pregnancy can happen at any time.
Got a new magazine today – – the Enquirer a male fashion magazine. My man is hot enough to be in the Enquire but I get jealous of the attention he gets and I’m hoping he gets it from the attention I get. There have been reasons we have not been able to get together in five years. I believe it is pride and jealousy I don’t desire what other women have. I believe in getting help when we/her/she needs it.
I believe we make a good team.
I try to do the best I can to represent my boyfriend and guy friends of ours as special and unique as they can be. My sisters especially my stripper sisters & sorority sisters have been picked for each place and we don’t have to complain that much about place to place when it’s PlayStation and Monopoly. To me, it’s all the cards that are dealt at this Casino one of the best things I have done with a guy friend. The reason I go to spot to spot is to take care of my people. I believe that is my right to check on my/our people the right way. This is the lesson I dropped out because of on Feb 7th of this year and pretty much last year. Two years in a row spending and having to repay the right amount $50 a month for what happened to a Senior – I thought it was itis. Didn’t realize it was Midas. What exactly are you framing because we have individual notes.
What’s Your Favorite Scent?!
Each person is important to me and yes we have all gone through tough times. Though we don’t allogate to be alligators and trap them into the traps I have always been scared of. Do We?
The Purge – Purchased The News Paper
The Purge is one heck of a movie! Click rewind and set the scenes we are women and men within big dreams. We went to College and some of my friends are just starting college in order to better ourselves. I believe and support equal opportunity employers and employment.
My friend, as well as myself, have grown up in the church political system and have put our/my kid into the church situation. Why are they begging to break a system that a family sets up if it weren’t for my parents little Brandon wouldn’t have the opp. to go to ECC which is a private school set by Fielder. For we are on the Field… We have learned through some people are extremely selfish. Some people “SNAP” in situations they have to own up too.
I trusted Him and I Still Do – The Ring Fit but I don’t have to be flashy I’ll save that for my graphics.
We have learned to remain silent in the moment of her passing Husband which she cherished her relationship. We miss our friends and loved ones since we have also lost our children to the support system.
My friend Ciara Bhadd longs for a mother to daughter relationship and I believe that is where we can help these ladies instead of being rude to them they can look up to us. In which I have studied PR and My daughter is Natasha. We will find and maintain these relationships through mannerisms that we are taught by an even older group of women.
Being a good parent is important
To me but how can I go to work without an SS Card?! I have to work for everything I need for me and my son Brandon. My friend Ciara has 7 children and I’m fortunate I do not. We both deserve inner peace and clarity. My last domain was lifeasacollegemom.net. Yes my jealousy level kind of got big when I had to lose my jobs and no one would tell me.
Yes, my jealousy kind of got my ego backstabbed when they shook our ingredients together and put in this versus that.
I will be happy once she has inner peace and clarity. – Ciara Bhadd
I get jealous when I’m falsely accused of something I didn’t do. Well, I also need credit for what I have done. Another point is when people lie to me. Also when I have things & people pushed in my face.
Article by Article I believe I can help these women.
For even I was taught prostitution and have gone up and down like my stats chart depicts but that is of no use to point out especially in class and say we are filthy. It is a bad road and I have heard the stories from the inside of jail cell walls We have to look for the proper sources of employment and help. The first step about the streets is to keep your own damn self-safe from it. Question everything. Ciara is a Med Doctor. I am that writer heck I a CEO of whatever I need and want to be.
I believe we are all the best at what department we belong in. We are fed from what our habits, traits, personalities, and dreams are. The book was Environmental Science and I was supposed to study it and yes that is still something bothering me till today. If they stated something in this state does it make it a promise? No…
Everything is in databases on the computer and some of it is more useful than another. I hope that what I provide and help people with is made useful to what our end purpose is/was?! FAFSA $ isn’t mine & FEMA & SSDI well their not mine and it’s all the GOV. Dept. What are we booting off well for me it’s a bad attitude so I try not to give it. When their has been disrespect and ungratefulness it’s time to move on.
I believe the only competition is past and present tense in which you have chosen both. We don’t realize how dangerous this competition is until you have listened and questioned the whole earth. Which I have done and They are Doing to me..
Normal people don’t get 16-25 year olds saying “Johnna wants my boyfriend” in the middle of church and that’s not why we come to church. I was and I’ll be able to get my reputation back and I have to maintain it myself. Each step is my journey and yes I applied to even that Journeys shoe store at the Arlington Mall. Happy to deal with consequences of my own actions of previous alligations do you see the alligators yet?! I was told to do my work. I take pride in a work hard daily for my career. I have goals.
That In Which We Have Endured
Vehichle accidents, ambulance rides, various hospital visits and stays and at 31 I’m happy to still be here. When I was younger I did have a problem with self hatred though with thanks to the help I got I got Help. Help when you need it and long for it the most. God says He will be the every needing comfort in your time of trouble and that’s the truth.
I have blogged since I was 12 years old and I plan on keeping this one for as long as I possibly can. I finally am happy with one man whose my true love. Trial after Trial of this mess.
It’s not the problem that I have a problem with religion or religion has a problem with science.
Which is one of the main dishes in our EDU system. We have a right to question what it is… I have a problem with people coming up into my face and approaching me and the ones I care about the wrong way. Knowing your boundaries is and always will be important.
Last year I took a Humanities course at Texas Wesleyan and we slightly covered other religions and customs. The Chinese Horoscope is a tale that begins with the Jade Emperor, or Buddha, depending on the teller, who summoned all the animals of the universe for a race, or a banquet.The order that they came in determined the order of the zodiac.
The animals endured different trials and the Rabbit won. Next to the Dragon due to tricks. The animals of the zodiac were brought to China via the Silk Road, the same central Asian trade route that brought the com/introduction-to-buddhism-449715″>Buddhist belief from India to China.
I Am A Rabbit
To find out what you are look at the list then in google research your animal. You will find a long list of characteristics and traits attaining to you. The App I am using is Horoscope best horoscope app ever the purple icon one. I like this one the best so far.
I spent a good amount of time last night well ok all night wooing over apps.
Most Fortunate in life span
Mythical person of the moon
agreeable and relaxed (for me this is very true)
sprucing up the grounds
delicate & calm
dignified & deliberate
trust anything isn’t difficult
enthusiasm for battle
getting away from damage
tranquil, peaceful, agreeable (love this state)
begin and end well
reasonable for political and governmental work due to kind picture
influence to trust others
take care of issues with discourtesy
tolerant of others
writing, craftsmanship, plan, ADVT, guiding, warning occupations, law, secretaries (So I know I chose the right line of work)
keep their word (always have well most of the time)
I Want To Pick Up Something New
Last night I played around with some graphic design apps. I have take graphic design but through Adobe Cloud. I downloaded the following apps and suggest them to you if your are interested in the same thing. I also want to pick up photography and be able to create beautiful images.
To sell your photos try Chashot app for putting your photos up there for sale.