Thank You & With Best Regards

At times I have looked to much into the past with pain in mind.
At the present with a take a small step and can I have mentality.

While now; in the future and futher moments I need to sit down and be appreciative of people around me who are trying to help me when even I painfully hid behind these disorders.

Watching the pregnancy pact; remember watching this movie first when it was just mom and I. I miss her; Today was presidents day – really wanted to see little Brandon and my mom. My dad is doing a lot of fishing – a long passionate family hobby. As well as my blogging I’ve done since I was about 12.

Dealing With Everything though not all at once… 

Money sucks right now and I’ve known it is only going to get worse, Looking up as much as I can on – budgetting. I still owe #UTA around $1500 for loans in spring of 18″ due to living situtations. Have to grow up to what I’m waking up to. 

I am glad to know i am a better worker and able to do good things in the future without homicidal and suicidal ideologies. In which I have had before and at the first part of this month.

You find people and find accomidations all around you. Though you really have to look hard for them. I have been going to the center for almost a year and a half while living here at the group home.

A Career – Being A Mom – Being A Girlfriend

I would however; like to give a thought on this Pregnancy Pact Movie. 
When I was younger I wasn’t lazy – then as I got into my 20s it was clubbing and being lazy with a little mix of TCC. After Brandon; I did go to TCC one more semester then to UTA. I did good for two years and am still hoping on graduating. 

I miss my son and I am glad that my mom is so good and close to him. I wasn’t patient enough and always asking my mom for help with him. I joined the MOPS group and went to Fielder single parenting groups.

I don’t really want to talk about being a girlfriend right now…
Though – I love you 

Starting My Bullet Journal Journey in 1..2..3..

I don’t like not being able to see out of one eye and it’ll be two more weeks till I can even order my glasses. Planning on getting a pair of regular and a pair of sunglasses from goggles4u.com for $20. Which wouldn’t have happened if I wasn’t fighting for my place at this group home.

A new teal journal came in the mail last week and my new double banded diamond ring is around my neck with an old chain from a necklace that used to have a music charm on it was. Slowly I’ll recieve what I ordered from these sites. I also need to get a JUUL charger already and some more cartridges.

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I like how these posted links worked out on here. Also repacked my small pink duffle bag for the center. I am going to try Minimalism! Trying to cut out unwanted cost and start living on a budget. I am trying to live the best way I can right now & I need to start getting out more.

Excited to get my 12 fine-liner colored pens & stencils! But wanted to start using the bullet journal anyways.

Seems this stuff I ordered is coming in slower than I thought. Next month I can’t order even half of what I did this month.

I Don’t Know Where I’d Rather Be

For the most part my roommates and I all get along. Except for annoying and hurtful behavior which is why we get SSI. I go to see my Doctor not this monday but next monday at MHMR homeless clinic on Lancaster.

I’m not getting to see my family like I’d like and I am really starting to miss my son. Though I don’t know how to deal with him that well. I wish I had stuff to plan and money to do things and a job to work.

For the most part though; I know I’m not as happy as I could be. Deffinitly something I need to work on. Through the tons of research and relating it to daily life. I would like to go back to school but I’m already in so much debt from College that I can’t see straight.

Seems More Like Christmas & Less Like Outercourse

I thought I called you Doc for a reason; but no it just slipped out of my mouth. See as to what my younger sisters been doing is, what’s better? Are we competing? Are you watching Black Ink Crew?

With pen in hand and pen pointed every little Christmas light we saw…?

I never seen some of the worst personal problems than I have on these torn jeans of this nurse. Mill-woods not my home; every-time they look at me as I fight to complete a goal; they don’t have to look sick to me.

Most of the time in this group home and even around my parents home!
I was trying to be silent and still and be with my child. Now I have last year been to prison three times for touching stuff; and on the streets getting messed with; and wanted go to one of the most expensive schools. I definitely didn’t hit up Tech; to that I’m proud of.

What those are our weaknesses; there’s nothing that wrong to admit what we needed too. If they got offended then; well mostly I’ve gotten help from my scientific minded boyfriend and soon husband. If it was our younger days; and me and you sitting around in our nice outfits; with a sketchbook.

Moral : I didn’t listen to in college especially other peoples problems and that’s why their upset. I’ve read these books plenty of times and they’ve entered what we thought!!! They we’re where for what we bought! I’m needy to whose pockets – tell me What’s Pockets?!


I said wash it not necessarily watch it!

Wow no one wanted to come to your Christmas Party… She looked at the churches at the three brown hair versus blonde hair girls party. As the two of them other ones we get mad at competing. For they needed to make the decorations, the play writing, and even the hanging up the lights.

One complained about being the Girly figure all her friends depended on. While they both evaporating each others Amigos. Esp. Ask my Amigos if they like totally down for selling Iquitos and that make us shun tons.

Even Lindsey well both of them; asked me the problem a pen point. Mrs. Jefferson I don’t get a direct an answer and I just well I just thoughts what they need to sit around and apologize. A Christmas present I handed you that was plaited out pens and pencils.

Especially when the tree decorating; on other days isn’t it your white dress straight out of jail. Which is unfortunately where these two girl friends are going to have to go. Ask AK If We Still went to her party.

 

@UTA there are two parties to go too…
What one of my old schools would I like to visit? UTA
Which teacher has power more power than the other is the question we need to pen point…!

What Do You Have To Learn About Here?!

“Tell me your someone else & I’ll all fall apart…” – Band Unknown unless quick a friend tells me. A friend from my past or pasture would be nice but this S.B. doesn’t sound like something I need.

In the most part of my 125 entries which I need to go back through and edit to make more meaningful. I hope my blog never gets abducted like lifeasacollegemom.net did though it takes more than just a website, a host, and a lot of words. 

It takes drive, a bunch of people, and daily motivation to get your message across. More promotion on this stuff would be great. It’s an almost life long dream to get truly caught up on Emails.

My Main Mans going to; Texas Art Institute which all we have both said is you don’t need Mine! He has stated and he is already my star since the age of about 13 an interest in Production. In which I took last Spring 2017 and made a B in Behavior and need to pick it up again. That creativity hits you like a pound of bricks when it does. 

That is one of my favorite books; yes college text books aren’t cheap and no I have the ones I have wanted to give and take away for a reason. Dad please don’t let them in that room. Unfortunately if it comes down to it… I wish I did have somewhere to lay my head.

The group home has for the most part been worth it; just to get off the streets. Which I roamed starting Lake Charles at 16 – Dallas at 18 – Fort Worth at 24 & again at 29. An inventation to join Womens ministry – So going where I “Am Called”…

FAFSA & My Course Route

I am still in need of paying back the debt I owe to UTA; in which I owe almost $3,000. If my parents could help me right now that would be great. I put in for a Debt Driven Repayment Plan – Pay As You Earn. Hoping to get almost 240 months with a rate of $0. Which will give me time to get a job; hopefully a good job. Finish the rest of my classes.

 

 

Lines Drawn Around ?

The bus rides in the morning take forever and God teaches us patience if we are silent and still long enough. Oh how I longed for a cup of coffee this morning and I was grateful I got it. Got what?! A cup of Coffee. Now I’m not thinking those jokes were that funny. Though it is the things we have endured that have made us the people we are.

I am realizing education was meant for helping not riches but each day we work toward what we are needing out of life. I am still needing to complete my degree in Mass Comm. Meanwhile, I try to learn as much as I can through anything I can.

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I still do not have a SS Card and I’m in need of one. My Father keeps telling me I don’t need a job right now until I feel better. Though My Father tells me I have a job and I am doing a good job. When Will We Ever Feel Better?!

Why are you walking up to our people like that? It’s made our people lie to us and we became untrusting and we turned our backs on each other. I believe there is no one that HAS to take care of you but yourself. That is why your supposed to work as hard as you can. For now/here/ and in the present. 

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Where Are You Pointing Those Fingers ?!

We did or We did either way we didn’t include you so you don’t have to break through what we have worked for. For that is how we worked through to our spot. Through our Resume. I have more MORALS than to walk up to your positions. 

Therefore do not walk up to MINES. It’s important to get the help in which we are needing. My mind isn’t in the clouds and I don’t hate your place. Yes Show Me Love – So Who picked up the Book and which Tab!

Always be humble and kind – we’ll kind of yourself. There Is A Time & Place for everything and Everything in its place. 

To Help & Be Helpful in situations where that deffinitly wasn’t needed. That attitude wasn’t needed. 

Stop trying to take credit for someone else’s work. It is perfectly find and also appreciated to take part in what we are informing ourselves with. Realize what place you are in and focus on how to get yourself better. To a better place and the necessary steps in whcih to get there. No one said you have to be perfect. When we can see through the mirror and glass we find your not perfect. 

Each person affects us and each item affects us and each situation effects us. For we are to be humble and kind. When I type certain things on my laptop which was bought through FAFSA it auto deletes the information instead of auto-correct. In time you will find – who your true friends are. 

What Kind Of Help Am I Giving?! When trapped up in situations like the one I have put myself in with my Nanny. The bigger question is who are we what? Working – yes you said it & I haven’t seen $0.25. If that’s what they call it. Girl you’ve had all the help in the world. There Is A Time & A Place For Everything & Everything In It’s Place. 

 

 

Here’s Help For My Sister 2 Sister & Situation 2 Situation

Got a new magazine today – – the Enquirer a male fashion magazine. My man is hot enough to be in the Enquire but I get jealous of the attention he gets and I’m hoping he gets it from the attention I get. There have been reasons we have not been able to get together in five years. I believe it is pride and jealousy I don’t desire what other women have. I believe in getting help when we/her/she needs it.

I believe we make a good team.

I try to do the best I can to represent my boyfriend and guy friends of ours as special and unique as they can be. My sisters especially my stripper sisters & sorority sisters have been picked for each place and we don’t have to complain that much about place to place when it’s PlayStation and Monopoly. To me, it’s all the cards that are dealt at this Casino one of the best things I have done with a guy friend. The reason I go to spot to spot is to take care of my people. I believe that is my right to check on my/our people the right way. This is the lesson I dropped out because of on Feb 7th of this year and pretty much last year. Two years in a row spending and having to repay the right amount $50 a month for what happened to a Senior – I thought it was itis. Didn’t realize it was Midas. What exactly are you framing because we have individual notes.

What’s Your Favorite Scent?!

 

Each person is important to me and yes we have all gone through tough times. Though we don’t allogate to be alligators and trap them into the traps I have always been scared of. Do We?

The Purge – Purchased The News Paper

The Purge is one heck of a movie! Click rewind and set the scenes we are women and men within big dreams. We went to College and some of my friends are just starting college in order to better ourselves. I believe and support equal opportunity employers and employment.

My friend, as well as myself, have grown up in the church political system and have put our/my kid into the church situation. Why are they begging to break a system that a family sets up if it weren’t for my parents little Brandon wouldn’t have the opp. to go to ECC which is a private school set by Fielder. For we are on the Field…   We have learned through some people are extremely selfish. Some people “SNAP” in situations they have to own up too.

I trusted Him and I Still Do – The Ring Fit but I don’t have to be flashy I’ll save that for my graphics.

We have learned to remain silent in the moment of her passing Husband which she cherished her relationship. We miss our friends and loved ones since we have also lost our children to the support system.

My friend Ciara Bhadd longs for a mother to daughter relationship and I believe that is where we can help these ladies instead of being rude to them they can look up to us. In which I have studied PR and My daughter is Natasha. We will find and maintain these relationships through mannerisms that we are taught by an even older group of women.

Being a good parent is important

To me but how can I go to work without an SS Card?! I have to work for everything I need for me and my son Brandon. My friend Ciara has 7 children and I’m fortunate I do not. We both deserve inner peace and clarity.  My last domain was lifeasacollegemom.net. Yes my jealousy level kind of got big when I had to lose my jobs and no one would tell me.

Yes, my jealousy kind of got my ego backstabbed when they shook our ingredients together and put in this versus that.

I will be happy once she has inner peace and clarity. – Ciara Bhadd

I get jealous when I’m falsely accused of something I didn’t do. Well, I also need credit for what I have done. Another point is when people lie to me. Also when I have things & people pushed in my face.

Article by Article I believe I can help these women. 

For even I was taught prostitution and have gone up and down like my stats chart depicts but that is of no use to point out especially in class and say we are filthy. It is a bad road and I have heard the stories from the inside of jail cell walls We have to look for the proper sources of employment and help. The first step about the streets is to keep your own damn self-safe from it. Question everything. Ciara is a Med Doctor. I am that writer heck I a CEO of whatever I need and want to be.

Expectations Vs. Reality in Writing

Expectations Vs. Reality in Writing

The truth be told I love to write. Ever since I was young about 8 I was seen carrying around a notebook. I have owned all sorts of stationary. My favorite stationary character was Hello Kitty and sometimes Lisa Frank when I picked it up. 

I used to write a lot of peoms and even won a contest one time.  Lyrics and short stories we’re amongst my favorite. I have taken a creative writing course here at the Local community college TCC.

When we write do we really write for the entertainment of others or is it to be hidden in a journal where no one can see it? As a blogger I use most of what I write in that journal. 

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Right now it is a thin black journal for my blog topics while some I have gotten online. Doing my Pinterest research and digging through articles I find helpful. 

 

Expectations

I have had to write for so many of my college classes since I am a PR and ADVT major. I have big expectations for my writing and try to learn every day.

For this blog I need to be writing 8 times a week. Without fail in order to get more readers interested in what it is I stand for and have to write about. 

Reality

We aren’t born great writers and we don’t become great writers over night. It takes time and dedication to learn to write well. I suggest taking a class in Creative Writing when you get the chance if you haven’t already

While in reality I have been writing 5 to 8 times a week. That hasn’t built enough interest to my readers. While I appreciate all the readers I have gotten I know I can do better. 

One of my main goals is to be able to market and have some buyers for the things I Advertise here on my blogging platform. 

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College Days

College Days

School is right around the corner or for some it may have already started. I am a college drop out … I was at the beginning of my Senior Year when all this happened. The first time I dropped out was after the Hurricane in Lake Charles in 2005. The next time was at TCC during my Sophmore year. Then twice during my Senior year at the beginning of the semester.

For the most part I enjoyed college except when I messed up.

I owe Great Lakes $19,000 in FAFSA Student Loans & UTA $3,000

College is expensive! I don’t know how I’m going to pay this off but so far I am looking at a deferment. I also owe UTA $3,000 in order to be able to go back to school. I am hoping I can come out from under this debt alive. I have never been in or had much debt in my life. So this is a new thing for me. I’m hoping I can use blogging to get myself out from this debt.

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I’ve been to four different colleges

McNeese State University – this was my first time ever being out on my own. I worked at McDonalds then Casa Ole and failed out of school miserably after the Hurricane. I wasn’t budgeting my money the right way and every penny went to partying and recreational habits.

Tarrant County College – A junior college I did pretty well here except I was taking a lot of miscellaneous courses that didn’t really amount to much. Painting, Drawing, also including Architectural History and Interior Design.

University of Texas at Arlington – Went here for about two to three years to get my BA in Advertising and Public Relations. I did good until my Senior year where I dropped out due to safety to myself issues.

Texas Wesleyan University – I wish I could go back here yes it’s a more expensive school but the classes are worth it. They also have lunch and chapel in the church on campus and it’s a really neat atmosphere. I only got to take Humanities and Production.

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10 College Hint’s & Tips

 

10. Use Tumblr and host a studyblr – I had fun showcasing stationary I would get and showing how I used my notes and did everything throughout the week.

9. Use a Planner – Track down when major assignments are due and plan out when you are going to do the necessary steps. Get the syllabi and write down everything that has to be done.

8. Use To.Do apps – Make a daily checklist of things you have to get done during the day and it brings satisfaction to make those things off your list.

7. Create Incentives & Rewards For Yourself – Save special things for after you have completed a certain amount of your goals.

6. Don’t Take On Too Much – Know when your going to break know your limits and stay under your limits. Don’t take on extra just because you can. This was one of my breaking points I think I took on too much although to most it would seem like nothing and I was hardly getting anything done.

5. Change The Way You Think

I am not smart – I can become smarter through effort

I failed so I should give up – I failed so I should use a new strategy

4. Use Whatever Resouces you campus has to offer – gym and library

3. Make an effort to talk to your professors – How is the professor supposed to know unless you explain to them what is going on.

2. Learn To Apply The Information To Your Life

1. Stay one step ahead of lectures – do all the necessary readings and handouts before class starts.

So Maybe I’m not the one to give this advice. Though I did have a 2.8 GPA now a 2.5 GPA before I had to leave school. One day I hope to go back and finish but that’ll have to happen after I pay UTA back for the dropped semester.