At my parents house ? my dad picked me up Wednesday evening and bought me three packs of Marlboro Black 100s. My favorite pack of cigs next to the American Spirit Blacks that I got yesterday.
My son has been using bad language and has had a bad attitude. Last night we went to Wal-Mart. Dad got me 2 pairs of jeans, a ruby necklace, a notebook, and a tri pack of scope fixodent. Then we ate at McDonalds.
I’ve had two large monsters…
Tomorrow I’ll be 31 & I wonder how things will change for me. Though in order for things to get better I really have to try.
Bought me a pair of MIC headphones as soon as I got to the center today. My roommate Laurens’ mom comes to visit on Wednesdays after taking her to the psychiatrist. I remember before I started going to MHMR on Lancaster. My mom would take me and Brandon to Hurst and I would go see Dr. Naus my psychiatrist who I had seen for 5+ years. Then I had Mrs. Mamo then I ran off on the streets.
Yesterday the center had a leak in one of the pipes. Luckily today the center was open.
Have 2 packs of Talon cigars and half my Coca-Cola left. We slept even more yesterday. Lately things have been slow & peaceful.
Pictures of my roommates & I.
Take time for ?? self care & too help those around you.
Are there such things as channels? What about tunnel vision. Why is there water all over my parent’s floor? Now even I am acting too lazy to clean it up or help the fine print of parenting. My parents have done most of the hard work with Brandon including potty training.
While my son (I mean our son ♣️♥️♠️) has a bloody nostril as we all proceed to pile into the bathroom to take care of him. It isn’t my business in the first place is it! Though it sure as heck isn’t theirs to even think about. We’ve already had our run-ins with CPS.
How did prey attack predator when the predator is supposed to attack prey. Geology rocks what pigments do we play. What do the time × force = time? I’ve attempted to take every science course at the University of Texas at Arlington though I wasn’t able to complete even one. I did pass Biology at TCC with a C and I was happy to get out of there.
Is this what we were all counting on & depending on. I am not a piece of pinned up hair with a pin and that is not the door. In which we try to unlock when we know we are not welcome especially not in this suite.
The trials we face become the things we are in the future. If that’s true these last two years would send me down the gutter for sure. Though I can’t think of it that way. I refuse to live in Orange Is The New Black straight jacket life. Don’t put me in a room with white walls and make it so I can always have my meds in the morning.
Though this Spring was messed up, to begin with, I would have failed my test that’s for certain. I was already scoring 43% on them and I may never go back to finish what I already started.
Kind words are spoken in reciprocated effort. We have to be purposeful and tactical in our own choices. ? Ultimately God is in charge but we have freedom of our own will.
Humble yourself in honor of those around you. ? No one likes an arrogant prisoner. No one deserves the disrespect many of us have endured.
We can’t just open any door ? each of us need our own space and our belongings we have worked hard to attain. I have been taken from several times.
? There are times to break out in survival mode. I have faith that I won’t stay behind a closed door for long. We learn everyday from the; lessons, skills, people we meet, and growth that comes through circumstances.